May your D20 always roll high

I tried to write an email just now and was getting too sappy so I decided postponing its writing until I can keep myself a little more collected so I will rant on here. The deed is done, I am going to RSU in the spring. I don't regret my decision. I think it is the wise thing to do, I think its going to be a great experience and I think that in the end I will come to agree it was a good thing. Not only that but I am going to be around the girl who is quite simply the girl of my dreams. And who one day I will marry no doubt about that in my mind right now. But right now, staring into the fact that I am leaving my friends, its killing me. There is a special bond, forged with the people who play table top, pen & paper RPGs. I am not going to say that its like those who have fought a war together because that would be offensive. However it's something that goes beyond a simple friend ship. These are people whom you have opened up to a nerdy level you allow few to know. These are people who you sit around living alternate lives with. In a way its funny because you become friends with people many times over. Because you are becoming friends with each of their characters that are little extensions of their psyche. I thought I was more ok with this process of leaving than I am. I was sitting there tonight thinking this might be the last time I get to play a game with these people for a very long time. Or ever for that matter. Sure I am going to come back on weekends now and then and all but what if...I don't get to do much playing with them. I don't know its just a lot to think on and I don't really want to yet.

For now however I will say this. You all are my dearest friends, and I love you all dearly. I wish you the best in whatever you lives bring forth because you deserve nothing less.

I will not be able to think about drinking a volcano for weeks to come...

Alright, incriminating story time. Today at around 2:00pm I was quite drunk well not drunk really but very very close, but it was in service of our public service department (the police). I was recruited as part of the CLEAT training and the administering of sobriety tests. I started drinking "volcanoes" (1 shot bourbon, sprite to fill ice filled class, topped with orange slice and a teaspoon of sugar cause I am a weeny)  in the basement of some city building in Bartlesville at 11:30 in the afternoon and was having issues with my coordination by about 1:45. At the peak of my drunkenness I was blowing on a breathalyzer at .095 BAC (blood alcohol content) keep in mind that you get arrested for DUI at .04 so not toooo much over but to me it was kinda odd. The scary part is of the 8 cops testing on it only 3 said they would have arrested me. Which in all honesty I was mostly fine. I could feel it when I was sitting then went to stand up and it felt like I had to focus a lot more more to keep my reactions as quick as they would be just on their own. But yeah for having around 10 shots worth of bourbon I was doing pretty good. Apparently the Morton bloodline can hold their liquor pretty well. Anyway I digress, we got drunk (some of us more than others *cough* tanya *cough*) then the cops came and and sobriety tested us. It was actually a lot of fun. Just the thought of the volcanoes taste makes me about gag now. Glad I won't be drinking them again any time soon.

On the subject of story for NaNoWriMo I think I am going to shelf my idea of my fantasy story and instead novelize my current zombie survival game I am running. Using the same kinda character models of my players but switching some events up some to maybe be a little more dramatic.

Fantasty is such a cliché genre to write in

Every thought that comes into my head is stolen from some book that I have read in my lifetime. Why can I think of nothing original. Why is this such a problem for me? I want to write a story, I want this story to be epic in nature, I want for my characters to be memorable and likable, I want for them to...be the lord of the rings or the name of the wind. I am so terribly behind on NaNoWriMo its not even funny because I can't think of anything that hasn't been done before! No more though. I will accomplish some on my book this weekend. Not tonight, I have previous engagements but dag-nabbit at some point this weekend words shall be cast forth from the cobweb ridden recesses of my brain like lightning from a dark starry sky!

I believe some revisions are in order

Today was pretty uneventful for the most part except this evening. I studied alot this afternoon. When I wasn't studying I was researching RSU and its nursing program and contemplating my options there. When I wasn't doing that I was contemplating how I would want to propose to Amy someday (congratulations by the way Wes). When I wasn't doing those I was sleeping. I went to dinner at Amy's family's house tonight for family dinner. It was alot of fun but Amy and I arrived late since she had to work so we missed alot of the socializing I think. I ended up staying an extra day in bartlesville cause I didn't feel like driving back in the dark to edmond and lets face it. I really wanted to spend more time with the love of my life (if you find that too mushy please bite me, I love her dearly).

Today I did some driving around and instead of listening to my CD I have in the truck right now I turned off the radio and talked to myself like a mad man. This talking was to toss about some ideas for my story and I am glad I did cause I am making some revisions. since writing is about stealing I am going with sort of the idea of a fellowship like in fellowship of the ring. I don't have a bad guy yet, I don't have a main character yet, I just know I am gonna have a Frodo or my Rand or my Kvothe or someone whom is my main character. And then the story will hover about them and the occasionally drift off to discuss the others of the party. I decided against the green thread, the black thread, the blue thread etc etc for the sake of continuity in that it would be hard to weave those stories together in the same time frame over multiple books. This book is going to be told like in Patrick Rothfuss' "the name of the wind" from the perspective of a story teller telling his story in installments. He is telling this story, one that has been passed down from generation to generation of his family but that is from a time that is black in the history of this world. I really really like the new direction and it can be fun cause I can take a break from the actual story of these characters who are no longer alive in the time that this bard is telling their story and focus on the bard and what is going on in his world and time. should make for an interesting dynamic that gives me a little bit of play room. 

Why does my muse strike me at 3am

Well I am sitting here at 3 in the morning wondering why in God's name am I still awake. Amy just left, that saddens me greatly. We fell asleep watching TV, well more like she fell asleep and then I curled up against her and followed suit. I really do love this girl. I can't explain it just I know that in my heart I have never felt this way about anyone before. It's really nice.

Well I am so rediculously far behind on my NaNoWriMo that its insane. I took a short lapse of typing to map out the world in which the story would take place. I really didn't like the idea of dropping a character into a world that wasn't developed at all. I mean when your in a fantasy book the world is very important after all. Though things have changed and I am not going with the original story of a bard idea. Though it would be nice its not what I am working on right now. I can see why it would be nice. The story of a bard would allow me to flesh out the beginnings of this world via the stories he would tell. However I don't think I would EVER finish this NaNoWriMo if I start going too deep into the beginnings of the world. So I think I am introducing a new character. I decided this is a multipart series that will be called something along the lines of "The World Loom" and each book focuses on one thread. For example the bard would be like, the brown thread or something. So this book, I think I am going to focus on "The Black Thread" which would be the story of an assassin. I am not going to lie this would be mostly influenced by the rediculous amount of Assassin's Creed that I have been playing. Which in and of itself might be reason enough not to write "The Black Thread" yet because if I did right now he would end up alot like Altair I imagine. I am still working out the details on the book to book, but I don't know why I bother since I need to write one first haha.

I would for all of you with a Mac seriously go for this offer MacHeist Bundle. It's a bundle of software for the mac that would normally go for over $50 normally but is going for FREE! Twitterrific is awesome if your a twitter'er. Shovebox while I didn't see as useful is going to be a blast to have. TinyGrab is kinda weird and I don't see it being useful for me personally but for some it would be good. However the jewel of this bundle for me at least is WriteRoom. Basically it turns everything off and you have a black screen with nothing but you and some green text. Nothing to distract you from what your writing at the moment. Not so great for research papers mind you but for writing say...a story for NaNoWriMo it would be (and is) fantastic!

So many decisions to be made!

I have so much on my mind right now and so much that needs to be decided on. Let's go over a few of them shall we?

I went and talked to the people at RSU Friday. Which was an interesting thing. Turns out that I could attend RSU for around 1500 a semester not 3000 a semester. Which is a lot less money than I currently pay. I have the lady who I talked to working on what classes would transfer and so on. The problem is that I would have to join in on a more competitive nursing program. As in only 75 from the bartlesville campus are accepted into the program. I find this to be scary but I am questioning if the savings in money would be worth it. Depending on the outcome of my different classes that are being looked into I could most likely apply for the nursing program this coming semester which would be the same as OC assuming I could get into OC's. There however is no way around the fact that I will be in school as long if not a little longer by going to school at RSU instead of OC. The problem is say I go to school at OC for 2 and a half more years. That is roughly $55,000 for the remainder of my OC career. However say I am in RSU for lets say 4 years which while that would suck lets take a look. At $1,500 a semester hell lets go $2,000 we are looking at $8,000 for my career at RSU if I am here for 4 more years. So that is what I am dealing with there. 

NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) is starting tomorrow and I am still kind of in a quandary about what to write about.  I thought and still do to an extent to write a story about essentially the life of a story teller. Basically the story of a bard as he travels around following hero's or telling stories in taverns. However the problem lies in the fact that I want to have this character in a world setting of my creation. The plan was to have this setting be epic in its expansiveness. Comparable to 'Middle-Earth' even but maybe not so much. The point is that I feel that pulling this character and writing his story before his world is created, the world which he writes his stories, songs and poems about almost feels like giving birth to a child before its due. But at the same time I am dead on ideas right now and he is my best idea at the moment. Anyway I will decide sometime tonight I imagine.

So I could be looking at my last semester at OC

What is it with me and this damn site that I always seem to want to blog when I need to be studying? So yeah, I should be studying for my developmental psychology test tomorrow but I am not instead I feel I should scream into the vastness of the empty Internet what is going on in my almost terrifyingly boring life. So lets get this rolling shall we?

First and foremost I should talk about the title of this blog. It's true, I might very well be looking at my last semester at Oklahoma Christian. My degree plan got emailed to me. Its final its what I need to take every semester between now and when I graduate. And if I follow it to a T, I will be out of here in 2012. Yes you heard me right. That is 6 years of college for me total. Now while I don't mind this, I do mind that its 6 years paying OC tuition. Let's face it OC is expensive. And 6 years of it is insane. Now while going somewhere else wouldn't be getting done quicker and would set me back probably a semester to a year tops looking at money... it costs me give or take around 20,000 a year at OC what with room and board and so on. If I go back home to my local college I will be paying at most around 6,000 a year. So 40,000 vs if it took me 3 years back home 18,000 yeah.... seems like a no brainer to me. I am talking with the good people there this Friday while I am home visiting the love of my life to see what they think about my credits I have and so on. So we will see and I will keep you informed if you wish.

So I might be starting to write again. I just signed up for NaNoWriMo which is National novel writing month (linky linky). Basically you spend the whole month of November writing a 50,000 word work of literature. I have always wanted to write I just never have had the gumption to do it. Granted with my classes there are better ways I could spend my time but it could be fun and who knows what will come of it. I know what story I am doing already. Or rather what character I have made who I plan on following with a story. I am really really excited. My sister is probably gonna do it with me and it could be fun!

Things are still going really well my love Amy. Just in case anyone was curious. In fact she is one thing that I look forward to if this goes ahead and I go back to Bartlesville for the remainder of my college career. I think she is the one.

Alright I have put off studying for too long.